My Vanishing Point
Today, God’s covenants were never broken. He kept his part of
the promise to give me life to the fullest if I accepted Him and His Son, Jesus
Christ into my life. Two covenants made decades ago when I starred the fate of death right into the face
of darkness as evil surrounded me and no exit to the light was shown except the
path of accepting God as my Lord and Savior.
At that moment, I saw a vision of God or His Angels. Out of
the deep of death, came life and hope. The star above guided me to the ways of
going to heaven. Thinking of my parents,
who passed away beyond the human vanishing points in life, I began to realize
the reality they are still alive but in another form of life as promised by our
Father, our God, and Lord.
At a split moment, the thoughts of death vanished into the air
as my heart was filled with of living and bringing my soul back to where it
could be in tune with my mind as the
stare of death was flushed from my eyes and the touch of the light warmed my
flesh.
Trying to wrap my head around the concept of the hell and
horrors of war around me, I grabbed onto the fact that God is love and love is God. This by itself brought to me the love
for life and the passion for living longer with his spiritual guidance by my
side.
No longer was this a futile endeavor to survive the horror
around me and as I promised my eternal word to serve the Lord, the concept of
eternity began to shape inside my head. Suddenly, the thoughts of death vanished
as the fruits of hope gathered strength to bring the past to an end and start a
new beginning.
Thus in my own experience, I went from a vanishing point to
another vanishing point in a flash of a second when God and His Angels saved me
from certain death. Without dwelling into my Vietnam War experiences, I can
honestly say I saw visions of death and of life – both very excruciating to watch.
Reflecting those moments almost constantly throughout my life,
I know that God is always by my side and never once left me alone. Put into
words that make more sense, the moment I made my promise to God, I knew that my
life would be everlasting taking me from the vanishing point of the past to the
vanishing point of the future.
Of course, the vanishing points refer to manmade vanishing
points, not God’s. We know that God’s time and space are eternal and our time is limited on Earth unlike it is in
Heaven. This made me think that God was eternal. It made me realize that God
had eternity in His heart.
I knew as long as I kept my promise to serve Him, my pledge
and His covenant to bring me eternal life would remain intact and bring me the ultimate
blessings sought for in my life.
There were no thoughts of my cheated continuous existence here on Earth before vanishing beforehand in my
time and space as I was being faithful
to Him and that my mortality lasted only as long as I lived but that it would
be revitalized with eternally lasting existence after my time on Earth is done.
Without having a panicking moment, I knew that God lasted well
beyond the end of my life and that my eternal life depended upon a God who is from
everlasting to everlasting just like the good book teaches us it to be. This is
where my vanishing point comes into play – thinking about eternity today.
If the vanishing point in life is manmade then there is no
vanishing point for God then all evidence points to the fact that He is eternal.
His time and space are defined by infinity and if you multiply infinity by
infinity you still get infinity. For a person, infinity is the largest number
there is except for infinity plus one.
Thinking about eternity is a lot to deal with. For my whole
life, I was made a creature of time and space. I only thought of time and space
as the environment and the surrounding elements dictated to me. There was no
wiggle room as science had mandated we live in time zones and by the clock. In other
words, I can only think in terms of time.
Trying to grasp that God is up above and beyond time while at
the same time in the middle of time is hard to imagine or accept. If I didn’t
have the faith I have in God, I just
can’t do it! But then, I don’t really need to understand what this is all
about as I let my faith carry me through the difficult moments and logical thinking.
All I need to know is that my time and my times and my
eternity is linked up to the God who is eternal. This translated that all of
the time from Genesis 1:1 to the last page
of Revelations is what the world is all about and then gone as human time vanishes
but God’s time is everlasting. Eternal means Everlasting, forever, unto
perpetuity, the world without end.
I am eternal because my immortality is linked to the eternal
of Jesus Christ. Because He is eternal, I too am eternal in Him.Thus
my vanishing point only exists in my home, and my future as I exist in the mortal
world of time and space. With His covenant of eternal life, I can rest in the assurance that my eternalness has no end no matter
how I may feel as a human when my time to die comes. I have my home in Him. My
future is safe with Him. I can rest in the assurance that my
eternalness never has an end because
God’s eternalness never has an end.
So as I found God in my youth days, the vanishing point of my
life has been a little concern for me as I
knew as long as I kept my promise to Him, He would keep His promise to me – that being that I will live
eternally and dwell in His home. Needless to say, this gave me quite a bit of confidence
in my mortality and gave me the energy and spirit to take chances in life. I remember
the pleasure I received from knowing my Creator is watching over me and that
all is set for me to pass on without any obstacles and freedoms to join those
who passed away before me.
Now, the years draw near and the vanishing point of time and
space are closing in on me. Causing me some anxiety to the degree of not
wanting to burden my loved one with all the care and arrangements needed to take
care of me when I die, I can find comfort in the fact that it will all be done
right and that the eternal flame of life is waiting for me.
Rightfully so, I spend more time watching the moon, the stars, and the universe
up above me. I rightfully feel that I will
be up there soon and as I draw nearer to that vanishing point moment, I do not
tremble with fear. I know that soon, the light of the sun will darken, the stars
will shine brightly and the silence will come with joyous sounds of heaven. This
is my eternal journey that I am waiting for – this is beyond any vanishing
point man can make in time or space.
But I am also certain that this will not come before God’s
plan for me is finished. I know that every step of His plan is dynamic and
moving into the right direction. Therefore I know the sun will not darken
before the time of eternity is here. Even after the clouds darken and the rain
and thunder come near, I know that until
the right time comes, I will not vanish from here or anywhere else until it is
time to go.
As I walk down the streets of life, I see strong men bow to others
with humility and honor. I see them show compassion and love to those less
fortunate than them and offer them the warmth of their spirits of hope. I pray
that their homes are not made of doors and windows that shut closed forever. That
their hearts remain open and their fears remain small as the birds come up to
them closely and eat the bread crumbs right out of their hands trusting them with their lives and well-being.
As the final days of my
promised blissful human life passes slowly, a stare of death brings the
realization of a vanishing loneliness as harsh as the
coldest most bitter winter is it flushes my eyes with the tears of aging beyond
the light of the most solitary star in the universe. To feel alone in a sea
filled with other creatures is depressing and gloomy as my spirits had sunk as
low as the bottom of the sea. Lying there, below the third layer of my wrinkled
skin is the bountiful hope of eternal bliss awaiting the end. Although it would
be a lie to say I fear no fear, it is true that the fear I have is not what
will happen to be but what I leave behind.
We all want to leave a legacy of love, hope and charity behind
for those who follow us into the promised land. We all pray of dreams coming
true and giving our loved ones the bliss they rightfully deserve and pray for. So
as I find my vanishing point coming nearer and nearer, I am preparing my soul for my life
that God has promised me. For the eternal life is coming and the blessings
received are well worth the waiting. Amen.
